Again

He goes
and I am shattered
Not wholely, I know
There is enough of me to go on fighting
There is enough of me to stand and continue
He goes
and I know that it is right
I do not know that I would have the strength
to go
and it needs to be done

But inside my body
my heart hurts
a physical thing
And my mind can only repeat to itself
it's mantra of questions
Why? Someone else? What did I do to make him change so swiftly?
Is it me? What is wrong with me?

I know what I am going to do
Stay away from men
Not because they are bad or evil
But because I want something healthy
And I must pull myself together before
I can create healthiness

He goes
I pick up the sweater I wore last week
It still smells like him.